7 Feb 2011 Monday 10:06pm

is now at your house...
you feeling sick....
now you are taking rest... then me jiu write my diary o...
b.....
actually i wan tell you all about this by myself but not by this...
i dont know when you just will start guai and not fooling me by all of 'that'...
i dont want stand up of all of this anymore...
askin myself i should brave to face it and say it out but i cant..
because i knew i am falling deeply on you...
always telling myself that all of that already pass...
don think too much...
plus you know treat me as well ar....
but still also will have the shadow of 'that'...
ya...
1 2 3 4 times i accept..i give myself one reason to ask all the 'shadow' away..
and i also try asking myself not to bother all that past tense things..
because lastly you also is beside me...
but when and which time you will lastly leave me...
we dont know....
b.....
should i choose to leave or stay??
why you want did all of that to hurt me but not protect me from hurt...
is that the way you love me?
i thought time wont effect dao our relationship...
but yuen lai not...
shi jian yue jiu,gan qing jiu hui yue tan...
shi zhe yang shuo ma?
i don know what the reason you lastly is beside me but not at those of girl...
may i know?
if you say u love me so you are beside me....
then what for you to with them?
fresh feel?
b....
we are no that younger...
we should think future...
i no confident...
why you always make me loss my mind.. lose my way....
goshh..
what i typing now...
blur blur**
many people ask me what for me to hold a guy that treat me so and no royatly on me...
ungly word to say i m stupid...
they told me soo....
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what my feeling on that moment...
i just will give the respond that i don know....
b....
no matter how many times they said so to me....
i also still beside you..
but when i discuss with you about 'that'...
you will answered that me already have the mind...
no use for you to explain...
b...you never try to explain how you know is no use...
many times prove that no matter what they said i still beside you...
you know???
or you just don wan to lie me...
how many things you still keep secret on me...
still got what i dont know 1....
could you sekali gus tell me...
if you don love me anymore then what for you still with me right?
you sure will ask so...
how i know...
then if you love me then what for you did so on me...
dont you feel like betraye me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
when you with them did you think of me....